UP.

I have been anticipating the part of the movie where people told me is very touching.

I wait till the whole movie ended, and then i realise it's over.

Thus i get abit shock when i realise that Hanyun cry, cause i dont find the movie touching. Is it just me?

It's my fault, i shouldn't hope right from the start. I did not have the right to hope, everytime when i wish for more, i will just lose more. Indiffrence and betryal, any idea how much does that hurt? It's no doubt that no one will ever notice or care if i just allow myself to slipped away silently. I am so tired. Drowning myself in music can only help me escape from this torturing reality for a few minutes. I am losing grip. Fuck, what is happening to me.