Liar

You are a liar.
You told me it's alright to not study for commontest.
You told me it's ok if i didn't do my homework.
You told me to take a rest when i am already lagging so far behind.
You told me it's alright to eat when i am so fucking fat.
You told me i still got time to prepare for my o level and i could always start later.
You told me i could watch the television or take a nap first before i start, but i end up with nothing at the end of the day.
You encourage me to splurge and go out on weekend.
You make me dissapoint people around me again and again, teachers who stay back for us everyday, i don't even know how i should face then anymore.
You are fucker, i hate you.
You are a liar.

My mind is creating illlusion of another human inside me so that i can happily push all the responsibility to her. It's better than being the person who breaks down in tears all the time. Call me a corward. I study for only ten minutes for my science commontest, seriously, i should just fuck off and die.