Sorry, i had gone too deep into it, now i can't get out. I am happy here, but only because it's not the reality. I maybe out of my mind, never underestimate that power, unbelievable. I laugh to myself so much that my sister thought i got posessed. I look at that expression and i feel like crying too.

On a unrelated side note, i felt helpless watching you did this. It's even frustrating sometime, when can you understand that what you are doing is totally meaningless and foolish.