I am here. Hello, my dear blog, once again. I rant chant and nag, i pour out my thought to you, but keeping some of the deepest secret to myself. I hate that i love you, but it's like screaming for help in darkness at times, even when i know no one will reach out to me. I felt so helpless at this point of time, while i'm here again i am crying. It's foolish because i don't have a reason to, but because i don't have a reason to. Maybe it's the stress of o'level coming, no matter how much practice do, i felt that i am not improving at all. Hey, it's such a scary feeling. I'm stuck, so tired so sick of everything. Yeah, it's the same for everyone else, i know but i can't help the way i feel. I hate the fact that i am still not working hard enough, i hate the fact that others took less than a minute to solve a problem that i am stuck at for over an hour. I just hate myself  for being stupid, for not working hard enough from the start. What should i do now, continue to convince myself and carry on, hoping for a miracle to happen? All i know is i am wasting my time here instead of studying, but i couldn't keep this feeling bottled up any further. Time to get back to work now.